You know what,
I am tired from and of being strong all the time. I am tired of being strong for my family, for my friends. I am tired of trying to keep me from falling apart, and others as well. I am tired of holding it all in all the time. I am tired of being the psychological and emotional pillar in my relationships.... Yes, I am tired. I think it's about time someone gave me a hand so I can reboot.
See the problem with being strong, is that no one ever asks if you're okay. No one ever asks how you are, really. It's time that I stop pretending that I have it all together. I am tired and it scares me but it's about time I allow myself to be scared, about time I allowed the waterworks to come through. About time I got ready to move on. All the weight has worn me and my back needs a rub. Thing is, I still don't know who will give me this rub... But we'll see, I know something or someone will have to give.
I write today's blog to all the pillars out there, to all those people who were and still are made out of steel, to all who are support systems for others, to all who have held it together or atleast made it seem like they have it all together. I write this to you. Because I am one of you...I am you. Being strong is among the hardest responsibilities, often beginning from the youngest of age and as a woman it's a whole new world record.
Let the tears flow... It really is ok. Even Kings and Queens do cry. Even the most powerful machine does need a reboot, even the cobler needs a new pair every once in a while. So just know that somewhere, someone is here, relating to what and who you are and letting you know that it's ok to feel weak at times. It's ok to accept support and help...
Every once in a while, everyone needs a crutch.
Love and support,
Nyandia.
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