LIVING WITH LUPUS

When your health gets taken away and you suffer sometimes unexplainable pain every single day of your life for months amounting to a couple of years, death becomes a reality. Now don’t get me wrong, it is not a battle I have lost or I am planning on losing or something of the sort, it’s just that the lack of health makes you aware of so much and reality hits you in a way such as you’d never imagine. Most actually  nay, all Healthy individuals cannot even begin to comprehend on the reality that we must all die in the end…it is a thought that no one thinks of and to near everyone, it is a thought everyone fears.

I Have faith; faith in God and faith in Humanity. I actually believe I will get well I mean, it cannot get worse lol and hence for now, the battle must be fought and fought hard and well. Weirdly enough there’s so much positive I have learnt and acquired from having this disease, I have seen so many silver linings from this dark cloud that has hovered over my life for the past 4 years now. The pros outdo the cons so this battle is definitely not getting lost. I'll share for anyone out there living with some sort of health issue:

1. Healthy Living

Exercise, I joined a gym to escape the bone pain and muscle stiffness. Also due to the steroids, goodness knows I don’t want to gain super weight as I did the first time. Meals, healthy and glutton-free, fruit salad literally a minimum of three times a week, almost no red-meat meals and plenty of Omega-3 salmon meals. I’m living the life.

2. Healthier relationships

The weird thing is, fake people shed themselves from your life when they see you going through hell. Very few people will be there to hold your hand through the painful physio sessions, very few will even visit your hospital bed and even worse very few will pick your call when you find yourself in a fix. My life was made so much easier.

3. No drinking or weird unnecessary raves

Since I’m literally like always on medication, I don’t drink or smoke and I find myself being more introverted since the day I found out about my health. I save much more money and love myself much more and treat myself better with my money which I could have spent on useless night outs. It’s hilarious but you should see me out for dinner every week….

4. Clean freak

To avoid infections and weird allergies, I find myself washing my hands probably every two hours. I know its obsessive but I love it. My house is spotless lol and I cook my own meals. You get used to this and it’s amazing.

So you see, not everything is bad. There is good that comes out of bad if and when you choose to see it like so. It’s not the end of the world, it’s not the end of my youth and fun…definitely it’s just the beginning for me.

LOVE,

NYANDIA.