Of God working behind the Scenes..

Yesterday was an unexpectedly amazing day for me. Apart from one of my good friends who happens to be a doctor calling me to let me know he referred someone who happened to be in a bad situation to my blog, I got contacted by two guys who want me to publish a book and/or write for them on their blogs on fashion and what not. Cool, right? God really comes in the unexpected of ways. Oh yeah and Bae also took me to a Spa after which we went for dinner so unexpected...
Today however, I woke up from one of those unexplainable dreams. All I know is that in the dream I was being bullied as grown as i am. I have suffered in the hands of bullies all the way from a very young age up until late campus years where i learnt how to stand up for myself.
I remember in primary school at around 3rd and 4th grade, there was a classmate named Peninah who had it in for me.  Uptil date, I have never come around the reason why. She would literally go lie to the teachers that I insulted her everyday at the playground and for some reason, she always had backup from like 3 to 5 other mean girls. She, however was always the victim and the teachers really always believed. She'd literally go crying and screaming like she was demented claiming at such an early age of like 7 or 8..I'd insult her those weird perverse names you'd only hear with kids from slum areas. Well, I didn't come from better but still, I never did anything she ever claimed..smh things we never forget. One day I was seated quietly eating my lunch which was always leftover meals from the previous night crying; no one ever really wanted to associate with me socially as a child and if they did, they'd face the wrath of the mean girls, when one of my Mom's workmates came to see me and bring me lollipops. The guy adored me as I used to sometimes go with my Mom to work and he intervened and warned the girl. Now, you need to understand that this had gone on for 2 to 3 years before anyone could ever let me my side of the story.

High school wasn't a comfort as well as my popularity based on my name being the same as one of the beloved male teachers and being in the main teams of the hockey (among the best teams in the country ) and football team made it worse. The popularity spread to other schools especially boy schools and soon the older girls had had just about enough. My evenings and nights at the dormitory were hell basically as I couldn't talk without some girls goofing negatively and screaming and hurling insults. It made no sense at all it was horrible and for the longest time, I'd never look up at people as my esteem shrank further into a pit. I did get the hang of it though when just one person asked me to stop taking crap and live my life as supposed.

Campus lol was no easier during my earlier years. I'm not the type who are into attention but I'm the type who get it whether or not I want especially due to my loud and social nature. See now, I'm brought up with no girls and for a part of my life I lived with my Big Bro and Dad and even when with my Mom,  I was timid and she scared me to death as we never ever got along and was quite the harsh disciplinarian. So all my life I never knew how to deal with the members of the Eve Clan...I'd never stayed with any. When I won my first local pageant at Campus, I remember snorts and sneers from a tiny group who thought I was undeserving seeing as it was my first time while others had done it time and time again. Now winning an entire University pageant now got me into more trouble with the older women who for some reason thought I was after their husbands. Coming from a small town, news spread faster than bushfire and anything I did : from falling ill to being seen in a restraint was reported to these wives of mementos of the high society. OMG you should see the men I was supposedly trying to fish, you'd hurl I swear! Get the bald, fat drinkers with huge pot bellies and all sweaty? Uh huh oh and like a hundred years older than I. About this time is when I decided to stand up for myself. When one took it too far as to have her friend sneak her my files from the Hospital I attended daily as the Lupus had just hit. That day, I snapped and threatened to have her fired as that goes against anything medical practitioners stand for.

Basically,  standing up for yourself is something no one will ever give you a lesson on. But you know the funny thing about Bullies, they never go far. Trust me, I've seen it and even worse they always end up working for those they bullied. Life is fair like that. Ever heard of Karma? Oh yes she applies heavily here. And even God, he sees and hears it all. Nothing is ever in vain when it comes to him and in one way or another, he fights your battles even if it is years later...you will see he was never asleep when you cried yourself to sleep. All of the above people, trust me don't have much going on right now and when we meet, it's hard to notice the shame and bows of embarrassment even when I take them out for lunch or coffee...yes.

Life is fair like that.  The Author and Finisher of your faith, fights in three background for you and though you may not see it during the storm, when it clears...you understand he was working tirelessly behind the scenes.

Blessings and Love,

Nyandia.